Cathartic process

Loud emotive music, leaning into the wall with all my physical and emotional weight. Crying into the plaster. Base of textured water soluble graphite.

timeline

Inclusion of two key periods of pain. Being ripped from childhood and the destruction of an abusive marriage

raining pain

Textured, layered, overwhelming, overriding. The current experience after the historical experiences,

personal pain

Acknowledging numerous complex layers of the authentic experience

Head

I am here. I can not be ignored any longer. You have to see me. You have to hear me. I have held such pain for a lifetime.

Heart

It felt like a leaking soul. The grief is escaping through the cracks, it began I didn’t trust it would stop.

Hands

The process was heavily material driven. Scale was the major concern. This work needed to come from the shoulder rotation rather than the wrist, a 2.5m work for 30 yrs worth of grief. All brushes used were just not right, this is a work that needed to be done with my hands, have my literal fingerprints in it.